So it's been a number of years(again...see a recurring theme here?)  

Life in short.  I bought a house in Anchorage, have just been promoted to a network admin at my company, and my wife left me 3 months ago.    Her antics never stopped, and she never seemed like she wanted to fix them.  I wanted to talk to her about it, and her answer was "I think I want to move home".  And me being mad at the time, said nothing except "well, that's it then."  Since then, life has been an emotional roller coaster of wanting her back, and learning about some of the things she does, and never wanting her to return.  Yet through all of it...I still love her, and there's not much I can do about it unfortunately.  I finally get to the point where I feel like I'm moving on, and I'm ready to start doing the paperwork, and then I start dreaming about her, like today. I had a dream where we were back together, and the severe distrust, pain in my gut was still there, and she was still off doing things she wasn't supposed to, but all I could do was try to please her and get her to stay...dunno what it means, but it's not cool, and not fair to my mental health...

Other than that, things are going pretty well.  Church is going well, work is going well, and I've been actually having a social life since moving to day shift.  

But that's all for now.  

I think I will start writing on here more often again, and maybe even get the creativity to write, take pictures, etc.  

amazing what loneliness does to creativity levels.  

--out--